Am i not worth fighting for? Im so tired of hearing “i hope it’s you” . Because, seriously if it’s really me then why not fight for me? Why not choose me? It’s not flatterig to hear that i should be the one or it should have been me and not her. It hurts me more because what did i do to deserve all your regrets for not choosing me over her.
You know what, I dont feel nice that you think of me when you look at her. I dont feel good that you think of me before you sleep right next to her. And hell i dont feel proud that after so many years you are still wondering about what if it was me you ended up with.
Saying those things won’t make it feel better because it doesn’t change the fact that you never fought for me, you never chose me and you let me go. You have never done anything to make me stay. Nothing.
I have so many things to tell you…
My 11:11 wish is about you.
Im so glad that we’re back communicating with eachother thru BBM. I know this will slow down my process of moving on, but im still glad that you’re still there and never chose to let go of me completely.
I miss u…
Glad that we were able to talk the other day. I wish i could tell you that i miss u but i can’t. I wish we could still talk about anything without getting emotional. I wish i could still say i love you but i know it will just cause us more pain. Urrgh it’s eating me alive. I miss you tabsy… :’(